a warm cup of chocolate

Monday, June 30, 2008

sometimes at work, i peer out of my window and look at the port, the sea at a distance and at the highway below, at the cars that zoom past. i know how it feels like to be in a car on the highway, because it's the route that takes me home from school. yet, everything seems small and i'm away, somewhere in a little compartment with my (constant) cup of tea, somewhere behind a window.
am at the in between stage of things, but this period has allowed the time and space for me to find out a little more about where i'm going in life.
i like the space of the esplanade at night, rediscovering places alone. the walks that work takes me on, taking photographs of buildings against the sky. i like the crowd on the train, and the silence the crowd sometimes brings. i like mornings where i feel sunshine-y enough to stand when i can sit, leaning against the plastic compartment reading the pocket gospel of mark. i like supermarket shopping, deciding which bars of chocolate and mushrooms to buy.
there have been moments between which i appreciate a lot.. moments which made me happy enough to want to skip in high heels, moments where i know i got off easily, moments where you didn't have to be but were kind to me. i've been silent all this while-- all i've said or will probably say is that -it will pass. but for all the tiny moments in between, for all the people who know who they are, for all the rainbows, for the tears when i sing the old rugged cross- thank you, from the bottom of my mending heart.

starfish @ 5:16 AM

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

God has not always promised
Skies always blue
Flower-strewn pathways
All our lives through;
God has not promised
Sun without rain,
Joy without sorrow
Peace without pain.
God has not promised
We shall not know
Toil and temptation
Trouble and woe;
He has not told us
We shall not bear
Many a burden
Many a care.
But God has promised
Strength for the day,
Rest for the labourer
Light for the way,
Grace for the trials,
Help from above,
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love.

starfish @ 8:57 AM

Friday, May 16, 2008

haven't written in awhile because things have been going by in a whiz. today i flagged numerous cabs, watched fountains dance to the tune of ' i just called to say i love you", discovered my love for corn muffins , carried a rabbit and went to look for " the notebook", which has been very elusive. today's rabbit was the first rabbit i've actually felt an affinity to.. it was flobberish and looked most rectangular. now i know i like.. rectangular looking rabbits. haha BUT cannot, have to be sure because a pet is a long term commitment. things have been crazy of late and am so glad its the long weekend so i can stretch my feet a little, flobber a little and enjoy late mornings (: the crowd in the trains in the morning is crazy, and some time far from the madding crowd would be great. it's hard to contain thoughts in notebooks but and am looking for THE NOTEBOOK! as i mentioned earlier, but it's difficult, because the notebook has to be.. the notebook. like the rabbit! the rabbit. (: i hope the rabbit finds a good home. ahhh! rabbit .. THE RABBIT! (: (: but ahhhh! it will find a good home!

starfish @ 10:06 AM

Monday, April 21, 2008

am feeling swamped with work now. :( head is swimming with words like net operating income, gross income multiplier and voices of the contradictions regarding value. this is all v scary :( but can do this! just need to stay my course and focus.

starfish @ 3:45 AM

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

To everything there is a season
A time for every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born
And a time to die;
A time to plant
And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones;
And a time to gather stones
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

starfish @ 9:05 AM

Saturday, February 09, 2008

i've been feeling restless for the whole day! :'( this is terrible. i didn't feel this way yesterday! have been sticking stickers on my laptop, eating lots of cherry tomatoes but am still feeling restless. humphety. :( times like this, furry creatures like bear are very comforting. and sister and i agree that hobbes is very comforting too during times of distress.

starfish @ 7:32 AM

It's been a long time! :) And haven't figured how to get the html right.

Anyhow, some pictures of happiness!
There have been many moments between, cups of teas, notebooks, people, papers and little discoveries about myself and the world around me. :)

starfish @ 2:10 AM

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

warm chocolate and a hug

i haven't written in a long time. am feeling rather drained now. right now i wish i were cycling with the wind in my hair, peering at fishes at underwater world, hopping wildly or taking a leisurely walk to the bookshop. i feel out of breath and slightly tired from running. i find myself needing comfort more, needing the security of you understanding the multiple layers, of understanding the meaning behind statements, which i perhaps, do not myself understand. i feel darkness more than ever, and i know i need a good cry, a hug, or some gazing through sunlight filtering through leaves or the shadows. sometimes i feel the tension of knowing what it feels like on both sides of the coin, things would be simpler if they were black and white but they are a shade of gray.
but despite everything, the wind will come .And some thoughts may land, perhaps gently, like how dandelions sway in the wind.

starfish @ 8:06 AM